I know, I know…still no picture. Thankfully, if you wanted a picture blog you would be visualizing on some other website. Today is my birthday, so maybe we will get some photos tonight, though the pink highlights aren’t as bright as they were before.
Have you ever walked into a trap that triggered an event in your life that cuts deeply and you were surprised by your reaction? I had that experience when I took Lydia to the dentist a week and a half ago. The particular dentist’s office is pleasant enough, but when I brought my three preschoolers for their appointment, Lydia was refused to be seen. I was accused by the hygientist of not getting them a letter stating that she could be treated. I don’t know what sent me into a spiral. I understand that the doctor wanted to cover her bases on risk to treat her. Maybe it was the stress of knowing that Lydia had cavities or it was the accusation of being a bad parent. I don’t know. You try to do your best, but that isn’t good enough.
They saw her last week, and told me that she did indeed have cavities and would need to have one day surgery at Children’s Hospital to take care of it. The only problem is that she doesn’t do surgery during the summer.
Grandparents are very good friends with a pediatric dentist in town, who use to teach at the school of dentistry. He gave me a call after speaking to the Grans and was so wonderful to give me all of his phone numbers and said that we were family. He saw Lydia the next day and agreed that she needed surgery and that it would be done as soon as possible. She will get 4 crowns on August 3. She will be worked in earlier if anyone cancels. They go to Children’s every week, but right now they are booked.
Ok, so I knew that her teeth would have a weird side effect of her previous treatment, but here are the specifics: She has feeding issues. You may remember that she was fed via a blood line or through a feeding tube for about 8 months of her baby life. When she was bottle fed, I could give her a bottle while she was asleep to keep her hydrated if she did not get enough during her waking time. Even then, she would refuse a bottle of water while she was asleep, but except milk. I finally gave up these feedings and now when she goes to clinic she is most often dehydrated. So much so that I am to do what it takes to make the girl drink. I only offer her apple juice, milk, and water. I have just started freshly pressing apples to get pure apple juice without citric acid or any sugar or anything to not hurt her teeth. I am my wit’s end balancing how to take care of her fluid intake and her teeth.
In addition to all of this, she has GERD (acid reflux). This too rots teeth. The good news is that her enamel is growing normally!!! That was a scare. When she is put under she will get her first set of x-rays on her teeth. I am hopeful that she has some adult tooth buds forming. Because she had Total Body Irradiation so early in life they might not form…but there is HOPE.
Thank you for letting me share my frustration and prayer requests with you. I am in a really good place, resting in the one day at a time aspect of life. God gives peace thankfully.
July 1, 2010 at 12:15 pm
I know that beautiful Miss Lydia and her beautiful teeth will be just fine- and her mama will too. Just look at how great everything has fallen into place with the dentist already.
Happy Birthday to you and David and hugs and kisses all around. I can’t wait to see you all in a week.
July 2, 2010 at 3:04 pm
God bless you all. Lydia will be in my prayers.
You probably already know this, but Smart water has electrolytes in it (like Gatorade except w/o the sugar). It is vapor distilled, too.
You a bad mother? Give me a BREAK!!!
Blessings, Vickie Oliver
July 3, 2010 at 10:43 am
Your kids are so blessed to have such a wondeful mom! I think you described the perfect stress reaction and you are so not alone.
I’ll be praying that all goes well and that Lydia is able to be seen sooner rather than later.
July 4, 2010 at 4:51 pm
HOPE
I think that says it all. Never ever stop hoping. God is in control and his plan will occur.
Lizzie, trust your heart. You’re an AMAZING MOM and don’t let anyone make you question that.
God knows your heart AND HE LOVES YOU and YOUR FAMILY.
July 6, 2010 at 1:09 pm
I still can’t believe how self-centered and insensitive people can be! Whoever tried to make you feel like a bad mother should be ashamed! The one who refused to see Lydia could have “good” reasons, but she could have also had some tact and compassion. What was she thinking??
I love you, happy birthday and still want to see the pink hair.
July 16, 2010 at 4:36 pm
Dear Sweet ~
Just got back from Latvia and have had the chance to read your blog. Sure do pray that Lydia’s teeth will be fine and the surgery goes well. It’s amazing how well you handle all you have to – seems like it never ends, doesn’t it?!? I want to see pics of the pink hair, but I can’t complain since I’m so bad at sharing my pics! Hope to see all of you soon.
Much love,
God bless!
Aunt Kay
September 30, 2010 at 3:05 pm
Motherhood is a constant juggling act… let alone throwing in a serious illness into the mix…. we juggle non-stop… with even more variables. God will always give Grace upon Grace. Miracle upon Miracle.